See my avatar? It's me.Well, i am just a normal teenage blogger and reblogger. I'm telling you i'm not good in making sammich. soo.
Masakit ang ulo ko dahil nagsiesta ako. Nasusuka na ako dahil paulit-ulit ko siyang iniisip. Pagod na ang utak ko. I need a break from him. Gusto kong magsuka. Gusto kong magbabad sa tubig kaya lang wala kaming bath tub, di naman kami mayaman. Wala namang magandang music sa radyo eh..
Bakit kapag nagsesiesta ako sa bahay namin everytime na pagkagising ko masakit ang ulo ko? Ang panget ng feeling gusto ko nang bumalik sa Baguio! Hahahahhaah
When am I ever going to stop fantasizing about us being together?
When am I ever going to stop wondering about when I am going to touch your hand and how soft it is?
When am I going to stop thinking about how it would be like if we cuddle?
When am I going to stop believing that you could like me back?
I get tired of thinking about these questions everyday, it’s like my brain is on loop. Always wondering, but not getting my answers anyway given that I do not do them with him.
Such a beautiful name
Such a beautiful disaster
Left you heartbroken
Left you off handed
When I just graduated from high school, I often wondered about what my life in college would be. Daily, I marveled how I would socially interact, how hard my subjects would be, how my teachers would be, how many friends I would have, how many cute guys there would be at my future university, if I would have a boyfriend… and the list goes on. Never did I expect the whirlwind that was the 1st semester of my first year in college.
I told myself that I should change myself, that I should be sociable and I should study hard, that being in my natural habitat of being in front of the computer would not do me any good in college. Did I do all the shoulds? Of course, I didn’t. The antisocial procrastinator slug side of me won. First day of college, one of my blockmates said hi to me and I did return the favor but I didn’t sit next to her, I sat on the last row of the seats. There, I would be friends with Aeryll, whom I would later uhhmm, kind of, unfriended. Second day I was bored and befriended Carla, who would be my best buddy and my only friend in my block. I only made two friends and I unfriended Aeryll. Why? Because she was amazingly very lazy, I don’t know, maybe not. I just do not like being with her, I can’t explain the feeling. She found new friends, she just left us in the air. Sometimes I think it’s my fault that she left for I do not entertain her. My best buddy, Carla, would be my ally for the 1st semester. Sometimes we would share corny jokes to each other, share some stories of our life and sometimes we would explain some lessons to each other but our friendship has never gotten deep. We both like our companies because we are both silent, we enjoy solitude. Sometimes we would not speak at all. Sometimes, I think that our friendship wasn’t friendship at all, just a mere alliance. I am silent, she is silent, it’s cool. We just needed companionship at the mess that everybody calls ‘college’.
I promised myself that I would study hard in college, that I would stop being lazy. I guess promises are really meant to be broken. I did not study hard, but I studied enough. I passed my prelims but just barely, I was nearly shot. Midterms and finals, I did good. I’m just kind of disappointed with myself because if I just studied really hard I would be in the dean’s list. I would not promise myself to study hard next semester because everytime I promise myself, I DO NOT FULFILL IT. Pero sayang talaga, kulang nalang eh dean’s lister na talaga ako. Ang tamad ko kasi eh, tsk :/
BUT THESE ARE NOT THE REASON WHY MY 1ST SEM OF 1ST YEAR IN COLLEGE IS MEMORABLE. I have another post for that hehehe